It's Cummulative

After 12 years of taking chemotherapy, immunotherapy, and radiation, I am left with not only a compromised immune system and below the acceptable levels for my White Blood Cells, Red Blood Cells, and Platelets but I am forced to live with constant fatigue, constant nausea, constant loss of appetite, constant feelings of flu like symptoms, and a depressing sense of loss.

Today, I slept 8 hours, woke up and piddled around for another 4 hours, then slept for 6 hours on the couch, and when I woke up felt like I had not slept at all.  I had no appetite and only one meal of rice and peas (1 medium sized bowl).

Tonight, I will go to bed early (no doubt) and sleep for another 8-10 hours which is my new routine.  I eat whether or not I am hungry because I know that I need to.  Rice settles my stomach because I also have constant heartburn.

Typically, my wife and I travel somewhere every other month for a week since we are both retired and while I am still fatigued, I force myself not to lay or sit down and sleep unless I am on a recliner at Myrtle Beach.  We go out to dinner whether we are hungry or not just because there are that many good restaurants at Myrtle Beach.

The key is not to give in to my feelings.