My Main Concern Now

One would think that my MAIN CONCERN now would still be my two cancers, or my heart, or my thyroid, or even my impending prostate biopsy...  and while those are of extreme concern to me on a daily basis, what I have been thinking about most is my BLEEDING EPISODES because I am taking XARELTO to keep my blood thin so I do not experience AFIB again or the possibility of a STROKE...

• I have to watch how I shave
• I have to watch how I work in the yard
• I have to watch playing with the cats
• I have to watch when cutting up food
• I have to watch how I scratch something

And, while it may seem like an easy task to undertake which it is...  it is still nonetheless a PAIN IN MY ASS to have to do this on a regular basis.

I have band aids all over my body and each morning, I have to check the sheets and pillow case to see if somehow I was bleeding during the night from a place that was overlooked or difficult to cover like the inside of my nose.

Because of my very low immunity, it is easy for small cuts and scraps to get infected which leads to a scab being formed which then in turn leads to itching and scratching...  and, this is typically done from instinct and without thinking.