My Monthly Infusion of Opdivo

TODAY...  is never that far away even though it only arrives monthly...  and, while I am always prepared for its inevitability...  I am always wishing that some day, I will never have to do this again, but I don't know if that day will ever arrive for me.  Still, my last PET scan showed that there is no metabolic activities with my cancers although the doctors are not sure exactly how much of each I have and would never know unless they opened my up by slicing me down the middle since my cancers are all over my body...  with the understanding (it is believed and perceived) that my Melanoma is only located in my groin area.

Now that I have lost a little weight, I can feel the hard dead cancer tissues when I rub around the area where the groin meets the thigh...  and, it still feels a little weird even though I know the cancer is dead...  still, I would like it to be out of my body but that is not possible since surgery in that area takes a long time to heal and could have many complications.

As always, I will stand in line (actually sit) for my blood to be taken and tested and the results given to my Oncologist before my infusion can begin even though this time I am not scheduled for an office visit.  This process usually takes about an hour.  So, from 7:30 to 8:30 am I will be waiting around playing Solitaire on my phone.  Somewhere between 8:30 and 9:00 my infusion will begin and by 9:30 am =/- I will be back in the car, driving home.

I woke up yesterday at 5:00 am for no reason at all...  other than, my body taking a practice day for getting up early like it had to do today...  it is odd how that happens...  and, while I wonder about it, I never question because it always is what it is and never anything more.