Smoking

In 1987 when I was 40 years old,  I quit smoking from my 2 packs a day habit...


Why did I want to do this?




Basically, I did not want cigarettes controlling my life anymore, in fact, I did not want ANYTHING controlling my life which is not that easy to accomplish so smoking was the easiest first target/goal.

I quit COLD TURKEY...

How did I do that?

It was all mental with determination, focus, and discipline.

The morning of my 40th birthday, I woke up with 7 cigarettes in the pack and knew that I could not wasteful and simply throw them away...  so, after they were smoked, I STOPPED.

In 6 months or so, I had gained 30 pounds and since I did not have the extra cash to buy new clothes, I did some research and discovered a way to lose weight by counting my daily intact of FAT GRAMS.

I about another 6-9 months, I had lost my 30 pounds without exercise...

I have been SMOKE FREE for 32 years now...

Another Day... Another Dollar

Any day above ground is a good day, I have often told people who have asked me how's it going...  and, while that might be a clever response, it is pretty much the truth given my health situation.  With Lymphoma and Melanoma, I live under a constant threat that my Oncologist will one day tell me that there is nothing that medicine can do for me...

With that mentality, I have maintain a constant vigilance over my finances and have gotten to the point today where if I were to die tomorrow that there is enough money saved (along with selling the house and moving into a rental apartment) to pay the monthly expenses until my wife reaches the age of 97...

"Get your house in order," is what physicians tell terminal patients and knowing that I have preempted that from being told to me...  not sure why that might be important to me but it is. 

While I recognize that I am getting closer and closer to the end of my life at age 72 with two cancers, I have NEVER seen myself as dying...  and, I am not sure why other than I believe that GOD, our creator, has something planned for me of which I have yet to be informed. 

Does that mean that there is something yet for me to do?

Perhaps, I just don't know.

What I do know is that GOD is in charge of my life...  and, when it is time for me to go, I will go...  just like when it was time for me to be born, I was born...

This is my faith.

I trust my faith.

I live today and plan for tomorrow...